Playing While Black

                                    Internet Image find from Black BDSM Facebook post

I recently had the opportunity to co-top an incredible young woman and her partner, both close friends of mine. It was a truly special experience, and it sparked a lot of reflection on the significance of race within the kink community.

 As I considered what made this scene so impactful, I realized that throughout my years in kink, my interactions with POC players have been limited. Most of my play partners, including my current partner, have been white—not by choice, but simply due to availability and circumstances. This lack of representation in my play experiences often left me feeling disconnected from my own cultural identity.

 However, over the past couple of years, this dynamic has begun to shift. I met the couple I played with through a relatively new munch group for POC players in my area. For the first time, I was engaged in a scene with individuals who not only looked like me but also shared a cultural understanding of our experiences. This added layer of connection transformed the scene, allowing us to engage in a way that felt instinctive and deeply resonant.

 We initially gathered at a local event with no intention of playing—just to connect and socialize. But when an impromptu invitation to play arose, I couldn't resist! I had previously played with the young woman and had even demonstrated sensual impact play with her. However, I hadn't seen her partner play before. Knowing him as an experienced player gave me confidence in our compatibility.

 What struck me during this scene was how our cultural backgrounds informed our interactions. The rhythm we found in our play was not only about physical movements; it was an expression of our shared experiences as POC in a predominantly white space. We synced to my playlist—carefully curated to reflect our sensibilities—creating an atmosphere that felt intimate and affirming. Music is crucial for me during play; it’s the heartbeat of the experience. I often find the standard dungeon music too jarring, but here, the soundscape matched our sensual energy perfectly.

 In my local kink community, there are respected educators and demonstrators of color who contribute significantly to the dialogue around kink practices. While I’ve had the privilege of teaching numerous classes and demos myself, I’ve always felt that our unique perspectives as POC players are often overlooked. Observers frequently comment on how our play carries a different intentionality—there’s a depth and richness that seems to resonate more profoundly. I wholeheartedly agree; our cultural experiences shape the way we engage with one another.

 What many people don’t realize is that our backgrounds inform everything we do, including how we express desire and pleasure. When I first began playing publicly, I was acutely aware of the predominantly white, cisgender norms that dominated the scene. This awareness made me cautious, leading me to over-negotiate and tread lightly, knowing that my actions were scrutinized. It took years for me to embrace my authentic self and let go of that fear.

 As I began to explore my energy in play more freely, I discovered a deeper connection to my own sensuality. The more I leaned into my individuality, the more open and genuine my interactions became. I remember a comment from someone who observed my impact play—though it was less flashy than others, it held a unique beauty that resonated with them. This feedback affirmed that my approach was valid and meaningful, even if it didn’t conform to mainstream expectations.

 Attending classes from both white and POC educators illuminated the nuanced differences in our approaches. The richness of our varied experiences became apparent, particularly once you moved beyond the basics. It highlighted the importance of representation and the need for diverse perspectives in kink education.

 Yet, despite these gains, I often felt the weight of potential misinterpretation. What I saw as play could easily be misread by those adhering to prevailing societal norms. Nonetheless, as I was invited to teach and demonstrate, it became evident that the contributions of POC players should be celebrated and integrated into the broader community.  And there is fact that the contibutions POC Players have made to the Kink Community, perticularly Leather, go under recognized and under appreciated.  

We play in every rhelm, Rope, Edge Play, Flogging, Impact Play, no area goes untuched and it is distinctive and intoxicating.  

 The differences in our play are profound. I approach each scene with an understanding that is uniquely mine, guided by cultural experiences and spiritual beliefs. I often choose my implements and techniques based on how they resonate with my desires, embodying a rhythm that is distinctly reflective of my identity.

I recognize the ways in which my play is perceived—there's an inherent difference in how I interact with my partners compared to others. It’s not about being better; it’s simply about being different. Unfortunately, I’ve also faced ignorance and intolerance, but I choose to navigate those challenges head-on. 

Ultimately, playing while Black is a deeply enriching experience—it's beautiful, connective, and fulfilling. Yet it comes with the constant awareness of being observed, sometimes critically, but often positively.

Co-topping with my friends solidified my understanding of how race informs our play. We weren’t just in sync; we shared an inner space that transcended the conventional teachings of the community. It was an organic connection, steeped in culture, that required no explanation or justification. 

And yes, it was profoundly different—an affirmation of our identities and the beauty we bring to the kink lifestyle.

                                                             Image from Black Kink Matters



Comments

Helen said…
I find your notes on music very interesting, mostly because we too have a distaste for the music played at our local BDSM clubs. It tends to be club/trance style music; heavy, thuddy and clubby, it detracts from the sensuality and connectedness that we crave and enjoy in our BDSM scenes. I guess, if you will, you could say that our style is "White sensual" - we prefer to play to choral music and candlelight than dance and blue LED lighting. There's also a somewhat traditional Christian component to our BDSM play; this is a thing between a man and his wife. I do wonder, as two sensualists, how our styles would differ and, perhaps sometimes, even align :)
Spanky53 said…
Music is everything! And it brings everyone together.

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